Day 6: Free to Worship

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my favorite type of music is worship music. there is nothing more soothing to my soul.  

so, sundays will be a day that i share a song that will be included in my soundtrack for walking in freedom, if i were to make a soundtrack for this season.  which i totally think is a great idea because i think every season of life deserves a soundtrack!

i pray you are blessed by this song as much as i was today!

here's my pick for today:

(in case you are viewing via a mobile device, the song is "cornerstone" by hillsong)

"For in Scripture it says: 

'See, I lay a stone in Zion, 

a chosen and precious cornerstone,

 and the one who trusts in him 

will never be put to shame.'"

{1 Peter 2:6}

Day 5: free to be honest

I think that as I am discovering what it truly means to walk in freedom with Jesus, there comes a time where one just needs to be honest.  I think all too often as I mentioned before, it's so easy to cover things up, wear the mask and float through life without allowing yourself to be discovered.

I think that the title, "free to be honest" may be a recurring title throughout this month! I feel as though there may be days where I just need to be honest, and today is one of those days.  This weekend I am beginning to feel the physical signs of what I believe is the miscarriage.  It's a tough physical reminder of the loss, and to be honest, it just seems wrong! Mike and I have gone back and forth trying to decide which scenario would have been better: ours or the sudden onset of a miscarriage without any forewarning.  The in-limbo period was hard, but I feel as though we have been able to mentally prepare for what we knew in our hearts would be the outcome.  

So all in all, I'm doing ok.  We still feel covered by the prayers of our family and friends and resting in the "peace that surpasses all understanding" (Phil. 4:7). It has been such an encouragement to have scripture come to life for us over the last few days.  But the truth is I'm ready to move on, and I really am hoping that this physical reminder is short-lived because it's hard!  

And I just wanted to say thank you to those of you who have been reading along.  Your kind words have been such a blessing to me!  It's confirmation that I'm doing exactly what God has called me to do.  

Day 4: Free to shut out the lies.

the events of this week have overshadowed my original train of thought for what this "series" was going to be about or how it was all going to unfold.  understandably so, but i feel like i should take a few steps back and explain why "walking in freedom".

we women are funny creatures.  so very different in so many ways and on so many scales but so very identical in one: we are believers of the lies.  you know the lies i'm talking about.  if you are a woman reading this right now, i believe you know exactly what i am talking about. (and if you are not a woman, i'm sure you know plenty of woman who are believers of the lies.)

perhaps these ring a bell:

"i'm not good enough"

"i'm not pretty enough"

"i'm not skinny enough"

"i don't fit in"

"i don't belong"

"my house isn't nice enough"

"my house isn't clean enough"

"she's a better mom than me"

"she's a better friend than me"

you get the point, right?

LIES.

LIES.

LIES.

i have been a believer of the lies for as long as i can remember.  if i listed all of the lies that i have believed/still believe, i'm sure as an outsider, you'd think, now that's just crazy.  and i'd say, yes, i'm sure you're right, it is crazy, but you probably also know that the lies are so easy to believe in this crazy world we live in.  somedays they are just so darn loud and convincing!  

i'm sure as time goes on, i will share some of those lies that have held me captive for so long because they are such a huge part of my story.  but for now i'm just in a place where i recognize them for what they are: LIES, and i am tired of believing them and allowing them to be the author of my story.  i no longer want to be crippled by falsehood that has no place in my life as a daughter of the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.  

because the reality is that it is crippling.  it is painful.  it makes me weak in the worst kind of way.  if i believe what God says about me in His Word and i believe that Jesus' sacrifice on the cross was meant to make me free, then it is time to put an end to believing the lies.  i believe i am in the refining process and barely on the cusp of a breakthrough, but i am ready.  

Because how am I supposed to walk in freedom while I'm crippled by the lies?